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|Wednesday, May 12th, 2004|
|My Ideal Life
Sometimes I want to move far far away from this place called 'Fairfax'
to a place called 'the countryside'.
Just to escape from everything, and everyone.
So everything stressful would be gone.
And I would be happy all the time. Well, maybe. That's a stretch for me.
And I would be a hermit!
And I wouldn't even have nice water or a toilet!
Just me in my straw house with my chamber pot.
Not even a television!
Except for when the O.C. is on, of course.
Then I would drive down to the next town over to the bar with the television and watch it.
And all I'd have to do all day long would be to sit on the grass and stare at the sky and think dark thoughts.
And maybe I'd have a pet chicken. Current Mood: contemplative
|Monday, May 10th, 2004|
|My messed-up life
Scew the world.
Screw my freaking Catholic school.
Screw your face.
Screw June 4 because it will never, ever arrive. Current Mood: depressed
|Monday, May 3rd, 2004|
I hate Mondays. So. Freaking. Much.
Because the OC isn't for another two days.
And while that might seem very trivial
It's really not.
Maybe YOU'RE trivial.
School ends in June.
It is now May.
Way to go for perceptiveness, Samantha.
Today I went to Barnes and Noble with Jenna.
I think someone peed there 'cuz it smelled like it.
Or maybe it was just some sad person's really disgusting perfume.
It is something to ponder.
Especially on a boring Monday night when Friday is far away.
I want to go to Canada.
I don't know why, I just do.
Apparently a lot of famous people live there.
Not alot of famous people live in Fairfax Virginia.
The Armpit of America.
High school sucks when you go to a strict Catholic school.
Actually it sucks even if you don't.
I'm sorry I'm so depressing.
No I'm not. Current Mood: shocked
|Friday, April 23rd, 2004|
Ahhh yes. Friday morning, sitting here with Jenna at her house, sipping Starbucks coffee and skipping school.
Jamie should join us every once in awhile, I think she would learn to like skipping school and hanging out at Jenna's house. But no. She likes to learn. Whatever.
There was a big math exam today, I didn't know the material. Why torture myself with getting a bad grade today when I can study on Sunday and get a good grade on Monday? Duh. Pure logic.
Pure Logic. A good name for a band, methinks.
Anyway. The last few weeks have been--hectic. Yolanda broke up with my brother (sorry if I posted that already) and now all he does is sit in his room and feel sorry for himself, because, according to him, he was 'the only girl I ever really liked'.
Guys are idiots.
Spring break was awesome. Me, Jenna, and Jamie went to Amsterdam, where Jenna's family has a house. Her family is rich as hell. I bet if she wanted to, Jenna could have a McDonalds in her room. Except that she hates McDonalds. The point is, if she wanted to, she could. Some people of all the damn luck.
Amsterdam was fun. Free. Exciting. A very nice break from the uptight rules of our stupid Catholic school.
In other news, my mom found my Chemistry test under my bed. The one that I got a 54% on. I don't care about Chemistry, and I'm not going to be a chemist. But my mother doesn't see it that way. Here is what my mother thinks: "We spend all this money on Catholic school just so you can have a nice upbringing and get into a good college, and you are throwing away your entire life. You are a smart girl, Samantha, but you are acting stupid blah blah blah blah and you better raise your grades up so you can GET INTO HARVARD!"
Yeah. My mom wants me to go to Harvard. Um...no thanks. I bet Jenna's mom isn't on her case every day. Me and Jenna: Girls with potential who just don't give a crap.
Just hold out until June.
Or just wait until Emma's party tonight... Current Mood: anxious
|Friday, March 26th, 2004|
|I am trouble.
I kind of like how I update at this time almost every week...Friday's rock, I have practically no classes.
I think Yolanda and my brother are on the outs, which is good. I saw them fighting in the hall yesterday.
I would have leapt for joy except that I was wearing my black boots.
And also, leaping is bad for my rebel image.
I think I may be getting a D in French for this quarter. Yeah. Not so good.
But it's the weekend, so I won't worry about it.
Only come Monday will I start freaking out.
Simpsons is new on Sunday.
So yesterday, I got in trouble with the school guidance counsilor.
She says that I don't live up to the school's standards.
Here is what I'm doing wrong:
1) I wear too much black makeup.
2) On the days when we don't have to wear our school uniforms, I wear too much black and apparently it worries the faculty.
3) I am often heard swearing in the hallways.
4) I am often not nice to others. (a.k.a. Yolanda)
5) I am not getting good grades.
It seems, in general, that I am the human Satan.
Yeah. Going to a Catholic private school sucks. Current Mood: contemplative
|Tuesday, March 23rd, 2004|
|Starting to get sleepy
Ugh. The end of the quarter sucks even more than the beginning of September.
I saw a cool commercial yesterday. It featured an old guy dancing to techno music. It was for Six Flags. Now I want to go there. Maybe I will meet a cool old guy who dances to techno music.
But probably not.
I don't want it to start getting warm again. I love the cold. It makes me feel awake, and I don't have to stay hooked on Starbucks coffee. More money for me. Well, also more money for the freshmen (and Yolanda) to steal out of my locker, but whatever. I'm to lazy to get a lock.
Seven more school days until spring break.
But I could die before then! Current Mood: bored
|Friday, March 19th, 2004|
Okay, that wasn't as bad as I thought it would be.
So it seems that I only update on Fridays now?
I should probably put a little more variety into my schedule.
But the thing is, ever since Yolanda came back to our school, she has been sucking everything out of my life. i.e. my brother. And my variety.
I know it probably seems that I'm obsessed with hating her.
And heres what I say to all the losers who think that!
Yes, yes I am.
The highlights of the Day of Fri:
Today at lunch Jenna, Jaime and I followed a little sixth grader around. It was fun. He didn't notice us, because we were wallflowers at the time.
And also, Yolanda came to school wearing black lipstick.
Now shes sucking out my individuality!! MY IDIVIDUALITY.
Maybe, if I stop talking about her so much, and she will go away. Poof, no more Yolanda.
But I will still do my best.
The end. Current Mood: frustrated
|Sunday, March 14th, 2004|
|Friday, March 12th, 2004|
Its Friday, once again. And here I am, hanging out with Jenna at her house, skipping school.
Because school is something that, every once in awhile, needs to be skipped.
I don't know if I'm still grounded or not, so this evening I intend to force my parents to allow me to go out. And have a good time. For once.
Jenna just drank two cans of Coke. And she is jumping on her couch. Screaming Britney Spears.
My poor ears.
Maybe her mom will come in the door at any minute and then SHE will be the grounded one. Ha.
Well, I am going to go write a dark poem. Or at least try to, since Jenna is kind of...loud. Current Mood: cynical
|Friday, March 5th, 2004|
Dear My Live Journal,
The world is cruel.
And Yolanda is still dating my brother.
And right now, they are out on a date.
And it SUCKS.
Samantha. Current Mood: crappy
|Friday, February 27th, 2004|
|Monday, February 23rd, 2004|
|My End Of Week. AKA Weekend.
Stayed home until my parents fell asleep. Which is really early, about 10:30 or so because they are getting old and need their rest.
Then I snuck out to Emma's house where she was having a party.
Didn't come home till 2:30.
And thats when the "fun" began.
I accidentally broke my window trying to get back in.
My parents came screaming into my room thinking that some crazy axe murderer had just broken in and was trying to kill me.
So now, along with being in trouble for the tiolet incident, sneaking out, and breaking the window, I don't get allowance or freedom for 2 months to cover the fines.
Wow. Best weekend EVER
In other news:
My life sucks.
Oh yeah, and also?
Yolanda is now dating my brother. Current Mood: nauseated
|Friday, February 20th, 2004|
I'm hiding here in the computer lab.
Don't feel like going to class because I'm a slacker, and here is what slackers do:
They don't go to class.
More evidence that I am a slacker: 52% on my French pop quiz.
I'm never going to France anyway, what does it matter??
My brother is being an idiot, again.
I saw him talking to Yolanda in the hallway.
I almost wish he had run away again instead. That, I would be able to take.
In other news:
I flooded the bathroom and now I am grounded all week because my mother thinks I did it on purpose.
I am sooo misunderstood.
So I flushed, right? And then when I finished washing my hands, I heard this weird sound.
It was the sound of the toilet overflowing and flooding the bathroom.
Okay, so maybe the reason I'm grounded isn't because I flooded the bathroom.
Maybe it is on account of how I walked out and left it for my dad to clean up.
Goodbye, cool weekend.
Hello, writing dark poetry in my bedroom on Saturday night.
The End. Current Mood: groggy
|Thursday, February 19th, 2004|
So I was walking to my locker today, crossing my fingers and wishing that no one had stolen my lunch money again.
And who was at rummaging locker but YOLANDA.
I walked up to her and glared at her evilly.
She blushed and said, "Oh. I thought this was MY locker. Sorry."
I glared at her some more until she left.
Yolanda still wears pigtails. PIGTAILS. One on each side of her head.
Um, sorry Yolanda. Fourth grade is over. AS OF SIX YEARS AGO!!
In other news:
Guess who has a record deal.
You know. The guy on American Idol who sang "She bangs! She bangs!"
And he has had no professional training. Of singing.
All I know is, I am sooo buying his CD.http://www.williamhung.net Current Mood: hyper
|Wednesday, February 18th, 2004|
Hmmm. I like it.
Its very dark.
But, also, kind of depressing.
I feel like brooding.
So, goodbye. Current Mood: contemplative
Well, my brother came back at midnight last night.
Now he isn't speaking to my parents, surprise surprise.
Only 82 more days of school...
Thats kinda a lot.
Well at least the OC is on tonight. And its full of teenage angst.
I hope Oliver goes to jail. The idiot.
In other news, I found my black lipstick and life began again.
I CANNOT be angsty without my black lipstick.
Again, my lunch money was stolen from my locker. Maybe I should get a lock for it or something. Probably.
And-ew!!!!!!!-guess who is back at school. YOLANDA.
I couldn't believe my eyes when I saw her. I practically passed out.
Who would have thought she'd come back to school?
Great. Now the school year is gonna suck even more.
And I didn't even think that was possible. Current Mood: pissed off
|Tuesday, February 17th, 2004|
Very. Bad. Day. So what else is new?
Woke up at six o' clock to the sound of my brother yelling at my parents.
And I could have slept for two more hours! God.
Had a French pop quiz in class which I totally bombed.
(Whats the difference between une and un anyway, and who CARES??!!!)
My lunch money was stolen out my locker. Idiot freshmen with their idiot money problems. (Get a job, losers!!)
Plus, I lost my black lipstick.
And oh yeah, my brother ran away. During school hours.
He'll probably be back just in time to wake me up extra early again tomorrow.
I am so full of teenage angst today. Current Mood: aggravated